Thursday, June 24, 2010

epy 10 months!!~

sy xnak ckp bnyak..
cme nak ckp..

thanx bie..
utk sme nye..
lurf u eva..
emuahxxx..
hikk..
jumpe ag bln2 sterusny..
dgn izin ALLAH~
amin...

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

fall for you~secondhand serenade

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl boy like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oh

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl boy like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl boy like you is impossible to find..

p/s : buat kmo b..mish u damn much~

Monday, June 21, 2010

its coming~

......

empty

speechless

m0ody

lonely

worry

mish

breakdown

needed

......

i guess it's over


Thursday, June 17, 2010

buat kmo~

sy pnt dah pkr sme nye..slalu dah sy pasrah..slalu dah sy klh ng prsn sndiri..sy pnt mnhan rse..
sy penat myekang airmata..akhir nye..sy sndiri yg parah..sy yg tluka krna kmahuan sndiri..ape agak nye dosa sy yg lalu smpai bgini berat yg xtanggung..sy cme nak mnmpang tp knp stiap kali tuh sy rse tluka..atau mmg dah ttulis dlm xdir..yg mmg sy cme layak utk bduka..patut ke sy trus kan sme nye dgn mgikut kmahuan sndiri..sdg kan masih ader yg bjiwa lain..yg mngimpikan khidupn yg xsrupa dgn sy..mgkin juga sy tlalu mginginkn..smpai sy lupa letak nye diri sy dmana..
tp..sy sndiri xmampu mnolak sme rse..sbb sme rse tuh tcatat buat kamo..dan stiapkn keinginn tuh cme mgimpikan kamo..sme nye kerna kmo..tentang kmo..sy xskuat mane utk mnolak kamo..utk mlempar kamo ke satu sudut dmane xkn klihatn lagi wujud nye kamo..mao pun byang kamo..tp..sy manusia..sy punya prsn yg xkn tpadam buat kamo..sy silap mungkin..kerna mnyintai kamo..tp sy xpernah mnyesal utk itu..utk bhenti dr mnyintai kmo..kmo..ttnm jaoh dn kekal dlm ati sy..itu jnji yg xkan mgubah sgalany..even satu ari naty sy dpinta pegi atau mgkin djmput pergi~


Wednesday, June 16, 2010

mc's day~

hua..
2 ari dpt mc dr dokt..
so nak cter pe yg dpt dbuat..

1st day..
g spital ng ma..then ma anta lek..
ssorg je dok umah..men2 ng miow la..then..
pe lagi..skian lme nyer xlyn tv..nieyh la mse nyer mbalas dendam..
abis sme siaran sy tgk..smpai nek bosan..
then pakse2kn diri tdo..hua..
klu kat opish bkn men xyah nak dpakse..
bleyh tdo dgn lncar nye..
nieyh kat umah dtg ngengade lak tdo xleyh..

2nd day..

sy bgn2..dgr tv tbukak..
i tot my mum cuti..upenye..
abg tglkan c dd ng fifi kat umah..
xtau la utk ape..sme de utk jg sy..atau sy yg kne jga dowg..
tp nmpak gaye cam sy yg jg dowg..
awl2..dah mintak nak mkn..
bmula la tgs sy sbg tukang masak..(xyah tau la msk pe kan)hahahhahathen..
after mkn..kami..tgk tv..seb bek skepala..
layan tom n jerry then barbie as repunzel..hua..
bhgia nye mjadi kanak2..

urmm..tp..
sy mgalami naseb mlg..
"dah jatuh dtimpa tngga lagi"
urm..sob..sob..
dpt kol dr housemate..
"kak sima..umah kte kne pecah masok"
wahhh..sgt tkejut..yg tlintas cme laptop..
hua..pe la naseb tnpa laptop tuh..
kngn tuh..
i got it since form 6 ok..n so many things dlm tuh..
kje opish..my pict..(pict bie) wah sme ak simpan ctu..
laptop is my 2nd life..huh..
tp seb bek..yg ilang benda yg xbrape nak penting..
coz ak simpan laptop dlm almari..
dowg jus amik laptop yg kat ruang tamu..yeahhh..
tp cian gak kat wani (c pemilik laptop)..

now..
sy sdg brusaha utk sehat..
coz sok cuti sy brakhir..
n mlm nieyh..
sy tlepas utk bmen futsal..
sob..sob..

Monday, June 14, 2010

kaki gajah~

urmm..
sgt perit..
xtau punca tcucuk ape ntah mse kat pd..
now kaki sy dah cacat sblh..
hope xlame..
sbb xtahn nak tgung ase bdenyut n bisa die..
arhh mate sy btakung mnhan sakit..
control..control..

td ptg..
g klinik krjn ng oren n jimie..
huh..
sy sakit ati ng dokt tuhhh..
criuz kaki sy sakit..
tp die bleyh plak lyn fb dlu..
kejammmm!!!!
benci..sgt2!!
die juz tgk kaki xbuat pape pun..
then kate ulser..
ulser???
hua....
tension...

now..
sy bharap ma dtg jmput sy blk..
sbb sy xlrt nak tkn pdal minyak kete~
TT

~~~~~~

Thursday, June 10, 2010

wanita dan airmata~

Suatu hari, seorang anak bertanya kepada ibunya, “Ibu, mengapa ibu menangis?”
Ibunya menjawab, “Sebab ibu adalah perempuan, nak.”

“Saya tidak mengerti ibu,” kata si anak.

Ibunya hanya tersenyum dan memeluknya erat. “Nak, kau memang tak akan mengerti¦”

Kemudian si anak bertanya kepada ayahnya. “Ayah, mengapa ibu menangis?”
“Ibumu menangis tanpa sebab yang jelas,” sang ayah menjawab.

“Semua perempuan memang sering menangis tanpa alasan.”

Si anak membesar menjadi remaja, dan dia tetap terus bertanya-tanya, mengapa perempuan menangis? Hingga pada suatu malam, dia bermimpi dan bertanya kepada Tuhan, “Ya Allah, mengapa perempuan mudah menangis?” Dalam mimpinya dia merasa seolah-olah mendengar
jawapannya:

“Saat diciptakan wanita, Dia membuatnya menjadi sangat utama.

Diciptakan bahunya, agar mampu menahan seluruh beban dunia dan isinya, walaupun juga bahu itu harus cukup nyaman dan lembut untuk menahan kepala bayi yang sedang tertidur.

“Diberikan wanita kekuatan untuk dapat melahirkan bayi dari rahimnya, walau kerap berulangkali menerima cerca dari si bayi itu apabila dia telah membesar.

“Diberikan wanita keperkasaan yang akan membuatnya tetap bertahan, pantang menyerah saat semua orang sudah putus asa.

“Diberikan wanita kesabaran jiwa untuk merawat keluarganya walau dia sendiri letih, walau sakit, walau penat, tanpa berkeluh kesah.

“Diberikan wanita perasaan peka dan kasih sayang untuk mencintai semua anaknya dalam apa jua keadaan dan situasi. Walau acapkali anak-anaknya itu melukai perasaan dan hatinya. Perasaan ini pula yang akan memberikan kehangatan pada anak- anak yang mengantuk menahan lelap. Sentuhan inilah yang akan memberikan kenyamanan saat didakap dengan lembut olehnya.

“Diberikan wanita kekuatan untuk membimbing suaminya melalui masa-masa sukar dan menjadi pelindung baginya. Sebab bukankah tulang rusuk yang melindungi setiap hati dan jantung agar tak terkoyak..?

“Diberikan kepadanya kebijaksanaan dan kemampuan untuk memberikan pengertian dan menyedarkan bahawa suami yang baik adalah yang tidak pernah melukai isterinya. Walau seringkali pula kebijaksanaan itu akan menguji setiap kesetiaan yang diberikan kepada suami agar tetap berdiri sejajar, saling melengkapi dan saling menyayangi.

“Dan akhirnya, diberikan wanita air mata, agar dapat mencurahkan perasaannya. Inilah yang khusus kepada wanita, agar dapat dia gunakan bila-bila masa pun dia inginkan. Ini bukan kelemahan bagi wanita, kerana sebenarnya air mata ini adalah “air mata kehidupan.”

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urmm sy dpt notes nieyh dr FB some1 (ohh akhirny FB mberi idea yg bfaedah)..
nak kongsi ng sme owg..
n...
td sy buat mama sy kecik ati...n myb bkn arini je..
ari2 len jugak..
ma im sori!!
luv u~


facebo0k!!

now sy sgt khilangan idea utk bfacebo0king..
nak update status..
nak men game..
bnyak ngat dah xtmen dah..
sgt2 khilangan fokus thadap FB..

punce??
urmm..
sbb sy dah bosan ng FB..
huh..
mls nak update status..
mls nak men game dah..
n..
punce besar..
sbb BF sy jrg antar komen kat sy..
lalallalalala..

so xde sbb utk sy tlalu fokus dgn FB..
maka nye..
FB sy akan khilangan kceriaan dsitu..

but..don wori..
sy still akn mreply n brusaha mreply msj2 or komen2 yg kowg tglkn..
yeahhahahahah~

end~

Sunday, June 6, 2010

ayep..~

ayep..
...
cian die..
die kguguran..
sgt sedeyh mlihat die..
mmandang sepi baby die yg kaku..
merelakan je ianya dtanam..
ayep sgt setia melihat setiap proses pnanamn yg blaku..
wahhh...
...
akhirnye..
sy gak yg kjatuhn airmata..
mlihat die mnyepikn diri dibalik langsir..
psti die sedeyh..
...
..now sy tpikir..
..ape la prsan owg yg buang baby erk??..
..miow pun tau rse hiba..
..nak kate dowg cam binatang pun xleyh..
..coz binatang pun tau mhargai kurnian Allah..
huh

reason~

got it now!!
d reason y sy xleyh gediwk..
coz smenye dah brubah...!!
mao atau x..sy harus trima prubahn nieyh..

_________________________________________

urmm..katenye..
"criuz xbrerti xsyg"
dats means..
mmg prubahan dah blaku...
terima..
n terima kasih~

Saturday, June 5, 2010

fever!!

fever attackkk!!!
not feeling well
so sick..
n so suck..

huhh..but im feeling bter now..
coz de kat umah..
ader mama..
ader miow..
ader katil..
ader bear2..
ader bantal..
smela..
snok brada drumah sndiri..
aman nyaman..

p/s : im getting bter now..coz sy de chenta sy~

Friday, June 4, 2010

the saddest girl in the world by cathy glass


Description

Donna had been in foster care with her two young brothers for three weeks when she is abruptly moved to Cathy′s. When Donna arrives she is silent, withdrawn and walks with her shoulders hunched forward and her head down. Donna is clearly a very haunted child and refuses to interact with Cathy′s children Adrian and Paula.

After patience and encouragement from Cathy, Donna slowly starts to talk and tells Cathy that she blames herself for her and her brothers being placed in care. The social services were aware that Donna and her brothers had been neglected by their alcoholic mother, but no one realised the extent of the abuse they were forced to suffer. The truth of the physical torment she was put through slowly emerges, and as Donna grows to trust Cathy she tells her how her mother used to make her wash herself with wire wool so that she could get rid of her skin colour as her mother was so ashamed that Donna was mixed race.

The psychological wounds caused by the bullying she received also start to resurface when Donna starts reenacting the ways she was treated at home by hitting and bullying Paula, so much so that Cathy can′t let Donna out of her sight.

As the pressure begins to mount on Cathy to help this child, things start to get worse and Donna begins behaving in erratic ways, trashing her bedroom and being regularly abusive towards Cathy′s children. Cathy begins to wonder if she can find a way to help this child or if Donna′s scars run too deep.


p/s :- awesome!!! so touching ok..uollz shud read~

Thursday, June 3, 2010

aishiteru by zivilia

Menunggu sesuatu yang sangat menyebalkan bagiku
saat ku harus bersabar dan trus bersabar
menantikan kehadiran dirimu
entah sampai kapan aku harus menunggu
sesuatu yang sangat sulit tuk kujalani
hidup dalam kesendirian sepi tanpamu
kadang kuberpikir cari penggantimu
saat kau jauh disana

walau raga kita terpisah jauh
namun hati kita selalu dekat
bila kau rindu pejamkan matamu
dan rasakan a a a aku
kekuatan cinta kita takkan pernah rapuh
terhapus ruang dan waktu
percayakan kesetiaan ini
akan tulus a a ai aishiteru

Gelisah sesaat saja tiada kabarmu kucuriga
entah penantianku takkan sia-sia
dan berikan satu jawaban pasti
entah sampai kapan aku harus bertahan
saat kau jauh disana rasa cemburu
merasuk kedalam pikiranku melayang
tak tentu arah tentang dirimu
apakah sama yang kau rasakan

hapus sendiri pikiran melayang terbang
perasaan resah gelisah
jalani kenyataan hidup tanpa gairah
o…uo..
banyak segala misi dan ambisimu
akhiri semuanya cukup sampai disini
dan buktikan pengorbanan cintamu untukku
kumohon kau kembali


p/s : nak dedicated lagu nieyh xpcialy buat chenta sya arr..
n buat kmo2 yg bkasih n joh dpisahkn jarak..
ohh buat ayin gak..~

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

1st jun 2010~

arini bukn ari yg special buat sy..
tp arini ari yg special buat owg len..
ahaks..

hurmm..
1stly congratez to my chenta..
coz 2day, 1st day die mlangkah ke alam praktikal..
ahakks..
naty same2 kite tgk pict die ok..

2nd..
sy nak wish..
epy burfday 2 my bosh..n also to abg amir (yul)..
arini sy abishkan mse kat taylor's college..
attend presentation student..
tmn my bosh je..hua..mhabiskan sedikit mase dbwh tngga bsma bosh..
cuci mate >.<
hikk..
then time 2 komen diowg nyer design..hukk..

after dat..
kmi pulang..n makan bsar bsama dak2 opish..
later sy upload pict ya..
arini smpat pict bie je..
ngeh..